I'm very new to the whole blog thing.  So i'm going to do my best here but I need to ask that you bare with me. 

Right now, what I'm going through is very much alcohol related.  So I'm going to try to think positively and use this blog as a good experience for me to express myself and for Melanie's story to be heard.  I'm going to take this opportunity to be brutally honest with myself, for one second of my life.  To my best ability I'm going to use very real words to explain how I am currently viewing this whole situation, to myself and to whomever decides to read this.